How many chances do you want?

This title resembles what we're dealing with in real life.
How many chances do you want?
One?
You want it so bad, one chance isn't enough.
Three?
Oh, you don't believe yourself, do you?
Sometimes you're running out of chances before you even realize it.
Sometimes you don't feel like giving your best before you are put into a situation in which you are in control, and every move you make is being judged.
And there are times when you feel like you've given your best, but still none appreciate it.
Well, life's like this. Get used to it.
You wonder and wonder, when will I get the chance like everyone else?
You wonder too much that it pass you by without you even notice.
Or, you focus way too much on what is ahead you instead of giving the best for now, and again, that chance pass you by on your notice.
Someone once say "you have to exceeds people's expectation,"
And I learn that, to exceed people's expectation, the first thing you must do is believe in yourself.
If you don't, who will?
I often find myself doubting me.
Lots of what ifs, have i done the right thing?
Lots of insecure feelings.
Lack of experience that I'm afraid of my own error.
But hey! You don't get that many chance!
You have to work on yourself, make yourself seen, heard, known of your intelligence and ability.
I know, I make it look easy, while in fact, this has been the hardest thing I ever face in my life til now.
I have pushed to the point when I have to ask, how many chance do I have left?
In real life, things don't always go this way.
The way I see it, when you're young, you get lots of chance, to swim new river, or climb more mountains.
And as time goes by, life that gets in the way, your chance to explore the world is not much.
While you're young, learn a lot, learn new language, be in a competition, do everything that raises your self esteem, anything that gives you a positive affect on your future and to the people around you.
Make your parents proud. That one day you'll look backward and regret nothing.
How many chances do you want?
This is the question you should ask to yourself.
In the end, it all come back to you.

We've come this far!

This evening my blackberry, my lovely blackberry went dead. And I was like Oh my God, what should I do.
Left with a straight face upon my facial expression.
I was forced to use my old and almost useless cellphone.
Oh come on! it's not even qwerty!
But then, this turns out to be mercy in disguise.
I was bored that I decided to re-read every old conversation in that old ugly cellphone.
And out of sudden, between each messages, I realized.
I grow up, I've come this far.
I re-read lots of old messages from those who have gone overseas, who has changed their city. And I have some kind of emotion that's just .... in-explainable.
We made some promises, some have such a deep meaning, and some, well some made me laugh out loud.
It was the point of silliness. Having no idea at all about what we should do in life.
Back then, when we graduated from high school, we have so many dreams, so many plans.
Now, I'm seeing the dreams coming true and the plans turns alive.
So many feeling, emotion, rush into my vein.
Things change, my point of view changed, and the people I'm hanging around with, also change.
Even that special person we used to have, changed.
But I'm proud of us.
The people I used to see everyday.
Things change, but we don't.
Looking back, I regret nothing.
I am blessed, beyond what I deserved.

Beauty fades

I once read an article, a nice heartwarming story about a girl, who's not so good in her studies. She's an average, no matter what lessons are taught, she's never go higher than B+.
B+ is good, but still it's not straight A!
Even her parents wonder why. And if there ever comes a day when their daughter got an A, one single A, well, they will throw a party to celebrate that.
But that day isn't coming.
And they gave up.
Once, they asked their daughter, what does she wants herself to be in the future.
They expect an extraordinary answer from her, but again, the unexpected happened.
"Well, I want to get married, and be a loving wife and caring mother, and maybe I want to be a preschool teacher,"
The parents stood in silent.
And at this point I think, o my, she's so ordinary! But the story isn't over, you have to take a look on the other side.
One day, the parents got a call from her high school teacher.
The teacher said that this girl, from time to time is an average student. She can't go higher, and even if she tried, the results is still B+.
Well that's bad, the parents thought.
But,
yes, there is a but that changes this whole average and ordinary girl.
"I once asked each one of the student in this class, if you have to pick one of your classmate, who would you pick? And amazingly, almost everybody chose your daughter. And there's another question, why would you choose that person? The answers are outstanding. They say that she's kind, and cheerful, she helps without thinking of herself. She smiles a lot, and on, and on,"
The parents then going home with a lot of thought in their head.
What does a report card full of straight A mean, if she's not an excellent person in life?
It's not how good you sing, how great your dancing is, how fluent you are in English, Chinese, or whatever.
How you react to things determines mostly who you are.
So if one day you become great, please remember who you were before this.
What is a pretty face without a pretty heart?
Who do you want to be with? A beautiful lady that is full of anger and self-pity, or an average girl who listen to your greatest despair and face them with you?
You choose.
Beauty fades, character remains.

Age is (not) just a number

To all couples who believes that age is just a number, congratulation.
It is a nice thing to know that love works through all circumstances.
But age works the opposite way in real life.
In your career, your way reaching your dreams, age is not just a number.
It is one of the indicator of success.
There are 2 things, 2 possibilities that can happen in your life.
First, you wake up next to your loved one, and you feel like, yes, this is it. this is how life should be. My dreams, my goals, I have it all here in my hand thanks for His grace. I have come to the point that I could not ask for more. This is it.
And there's another thing. You wake up in the middle of the night, wondering what have you done with your life, how many years you've lost, how many years you've thrown away.
And to be honest dear, one of this possibilities can happen to anyone, to you, or me. And dear, you determine your own life, it is choice and not fate.
Things are a lot easier when you're young.
When you still have so much time in figuring out what you want in life. When you still can decide how and with whom you want to do it with.
When you're young, you achieve a little and people will praise you for that. Go buy that gadget on your own, people will wow you.
Go handle big campus event, people will wow you.
Go fix your own car, people will wow you.
But get a little older, say 22, or 23 years old.
Do the same thing and nobody gives a damn.
People will say that it is natural, it is normal.
Or another example, make mistakes, people will understand you. That it is normal for people your age to make mistakes.
And when the older make mistake, get ready for another battle.
I used to think how great it is to be around those age, young and free.
But it is not young, and the word free seem to be meaningless.
So again, I'm gonna say the future is unseen, but you determine your own.
What you're doing now is pretty much affect what you're doing tomorrow.
So much from me, have a nice weekend!