Sunday 26 February 2012

Quitter

One day, in my crazy busy routine, I find myself reading a phase that a friend of mine wrote in her blackberry's personal message. It was simple, yet the meaning is deep. At least for me.
It said "Lord, You know that I'm not a quitter, but if You tell me to quit, I will."
What is a quitter. actually?
The word quitter refers to "one that quits; especially, one that gives up easily"
And believe it or not, quitter leads to loser.
But I believe none of us wants to be a quitter, I believe that you, yes you who's reading the post of my little unseen blog, are not a quitter.
But what if God tells you to quit?
There are times when He will ask you to put down all your dreams and plans that you've written in your to-do-list before I die.
When you look around for a way out but still, you can't find one.
And you look up, looking for a little hope, and He asks you to put things down, and walk in the path He has for you.
Will it be hard? Yes it will.
Don't complain, because after all, God never promise you a blue sky and chirping birds, a lifetime without storms. But He promised to be with you every step of the way.
Simply remember, that every step you take, He's with you.
And If He tells you to quit, it means that His plan towards you is far greater than your own "perfect plan".
When He ask you to put down your dreams and goal to walk on His path, you have to be ready for things like struggles, things like tears, times when you rather leave Him and follow your own plan, times when you think "He'll always love me anyway,".
Friends, there are reasons that we cannot always understand.
When you have to ask Him why many many times.
When you've done your best to a job, but still someone else is promoted ahead you.
You ask why Lord, why?
I really like this job, and why are You taking these away from me?
I really like this boy, why are You blocking our way?
I can shamelessly say that I don't have the answer with me. I don't know the reason why God is doing these things to you.
But you have to believe that He's up for good.
His plan towards you is full of dreams and hope for your future.
When things seems to be taken away from you, and you ask why, and there's no reply, all you can do is surrender.
Believe in God even when He's in silent.
But don't take this the wrong way. Each tasks and difficulty isn't always Him saying you have to quit.
Be smart also, don't simply surrender and say "It is all up to You, my Lord,"
You have to know when to  give everything up, and when to fight.
Be blessed, happy sunday, stay humble, and have a wonderful week ahead!
God bless you!

Sunday 19 February 2012

Choices

Do you know about R.L Stine? Maybe he lives in 1980's. He is one of my favorite writer.
He doesn't write my kind of story, like romantic or sweet stories, no. He writes horror. Alright, this doesn't feel right.
But you know what I mean, rite?
My favorite was the fear street series, but that's not what I'm going to write.
There was one series, about Halloween, that allowed us, reader, to choose.
We become the main character.
The first page is about the introduction of the story, and the last sentence of it will be a question. Which one do you choose?
And you must choose wisely. If you don't, you die.
But since it's not our life, since I can turn back to the page from which the last question came from, I don't think much.
If I die in the next page, I can always turn over.
But sadly, in real life, when you die, you simply die.
You can't turn over and start new.
And once you choose, well, you must live with it and the consequences for a life time.
It's like our life, you know, this book.
When you were young, the introduction, you get to know the people you live with, the opportunities that lies within, who wants to stand by you and who wants to stab you in the back.
And each time you're getting older, you are given a question. Maybe, you don't die in each question, the stakes are higher in the book than in our life.
But, in life, there's no U-turn.
And when you did one simple mistake, when you chose the wrong path,
What is left then?
The what ifs, what if I chose that path over the one I'm walking on?
What if I chose him over this guy I'm spending my life with?
Unlike these book, your story worth so much more.
When you have to decide something big in your life, there will be multiple times of doubt.
When you question everything about life, when you question your God about the obstacle.
When you finally question about God's being in your life.
And this phase is undeniable.
But what matter is the answer you get after a long journey of your doubt.
One of this will happen, your faith is getting stronger, or....
you leave your God because of your own doubt.
So choose wisely.
And if, just if, God allows something bad happen in your life, it's not that much to bear.
Yes, you can cry, you can cry yourself until there's no more tear left.
But, after that, get a hold on yourself.
Be strong.
Stand still.
Why? Because God is holding your hand. Have faith guys, Happy Sunday, wonderful weeks ahead!


Thursday 16 February 2012

The Ability of Killing

Each one of us have an ability, singing, dancing, making one good photo, organizing, and else.
But don't forget, there is also an ability of killing.
No, not the kind of killing that involves murder or dealing with some drugdealer and those kind of dark thingies.
But killing to achieve your goal.
And lately, I realized that I have this freaking horrible ability.
When I set my goal, I know I have to achieve it, and I really could use any way.
Creepy huh?
And it's not only me.
Look into yourself, we all have this freaking ability
It's like "Get in my way, and I'll kill you,"
And don't be sad. It is one of human nature.

The question is,
when the time comes, when you have to deal with the obstacle that is so hard to endure and when the opportunity to get rid of this has, well, finally arrived...
Would you?
Would you really kill to get what you want?

This is what determines you.
A few times ago I posted a status on Facebook
"It doesn't matter when, or when, or how I do it. After all, dreams have no expiry date"
Now thinking about it, it does matter HOW I do it.
It does matter WITH WHOM I'm doing it.
It does matter for WHO I do that job for.
And it does matter, WHO stick with me and make a good person out of me.

When you have to kill someone innocent to achieve your goal, it can't guarantee a happiness.
It can't guarantee a pleasure knowing that you do the right thing for the right somebody.
When you have to kill someone to get what you want,
in the end, all that is left is regret.

But if you still want to try, go on.
It's your life anyway.
May this post inspire you, in a good way, of course.
Thanks for reading!

Wednesday 15 February 2012

Happy valentine

It is one of my favorite part from gossip girl. When Georgie, Serena's old friend came along, had a diner with her, and asked "So tell me about dan, what is he like?" And Serena smiled and said"I like the way he look at me,"
Georgie asked, "How?"
And Serena answered "It's like I want to believe in myself,"

This is what makes me hold on to what I am doing now. Staying single.
Why? Because somehow, love is too great to be wasted. I want to experience it myself.
Everytime I feel like I'm alone (actually, most of this lonely feelings is caused by some of my friend that is "taken") and just want to settle with someone that is good, I'm thinking of this.

About how wonderful love is.
I have described love, for more than a million times, in more than a hundred ways.
But still, when you've experience it yourself.
Not even one of my words, my description, my writings, could describe how you feel.
It is one of a kind.

Way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name.
One of Taylor swift's line from the song Hey Stephen, that describe her madly and unconditionally in love phase.
And yes, it is about the way you do everything.
When you notice every little detail about your loved one,
that's love.

And how he make you feel.
It is, well, wonderful.
Happy valentine day, once again!

Wednesday 8 February 2012

Everything Love is

Love is patient, Love is kind, It does not rejoice in evil, it isn't boast or rude, and so on. Yes, we all have heard, read this verse for.. I don't know, hundreds of time maybe?
But still.
People need a daily remember about everything love is.
Because now, I see love somehow don't get really involved in a relationship.
Sometimes the fear of being alone take over its place and leave 2 person in an unworthy relationship.
Lucky them if love finally come and turn that unworthy to worthy.
Let's just admit it.
 We wonder what would it be like to have someone who cares about us for all time, and as time goes by, we just don't wonder, we want the attention.
But we do need to remember one thing.
 Love is about giving and not expecting anything in return.
Love is a verb, so it shall be proven by act not by words.
It is about having someone to care for all time.
It's not only about him that is way too patient to deal with your ups and downs.
It is also about you.
How you deal with him through his bad time, and how you can sincerely be happy for him when he has something good happening to him.
You want to make a good man out of him and he does feel the same.
So the conclusion is yes, we need a daily reminder about everything love is.
So start now.
Love yourself, feel good about yourself. Be confident.
And then start by loving each one around you. Respect them as you respect yourself.
I know it is a challenge, so challenge yourself!
Compete with others and you become bitter, compete with yourself, and be better!
Best regards and happy valentine day!

Friday 3 February 2012

An Ever Ever After

I just watched one of disney's movie, Enchanted.
I find one of my favorite line "I don't want to stuff her mind with thinking that dreams do come true," and then Giselle spontaneously said "But they do."
Okay, sometimes in life, we deal with this kind of thing. The what ifs, the if only, the uncertainy of our future.
Yesterday, I witnessed a fortune teller, telling one person to another about how the dragon year would affect their life. Some think that this is just a joke, but still, there are many people believe in his words. It's like their life and death is on his hand. What he's saying will affect their life.
I actually don't believe in such thing.
But when I got home, I wonder how it will be like if he did read my palm.
I only want to hear him say that I'm gonna be a successful woman in the future. Not less or more.
But like life, it is all about uncertainty.
And life doesn't really promise you an ever ever after.
But life sure does offer something. It offers love. Sharing your life with someone.
Maybe, it isn't a happily ever after. Oh please, such thing just simply don't exist. Like the fortune teller. To be honest, I'd like to deal with the uncertainty rather than hearing something I don't want to hear.
Sometimes, what you need to have your own happily ever after state is someone who can tell you that it's ok to break down, it's ok to cry. Someone who'll tell you that dreams do come true.
A little sharing, I did have another chit chat with my big brother. And I told him, I like someone, I like his appearance, I just don't like one of his weakness. And I told him, I am selfish, I don't want to help him grow, yet, I want him to be with me when he matured. Heck what am I? I thought. I am sure, for that good guy, there are plenty girls who will take him as he is and help him grow.
And then I remembered, that love is sincere. And loving someone should be sincere. Rather than being with just anyone who catch your eyes, why not be with someone who is willing to catch your heart?
An ever ever after does exist, or would you rather believe that it doesn't?
The choice is in your hand people. You make your own happiness, and don't make someone, or anyone be responsible of that. It is your choice to have your own happily ever after.
Enough from me, have a wonderful weekend, fighting!