Lord, is it worth the wait?

You know, I've been asking myself this question a lot of time.
Is he worth the wait?
Will he ever notice that i exist?
This face, isn't this good enough from someone like him?
What should I do to win his heart?

Okay, a better topic about our dreams.
Sometimes, I wonder, if it's meant to be it will happen, right?
And my dreams, my future, what will it be if I just sit and write?
Will I get what I want?
Is my dream worth pursuing?
What if I pursue my dream, and life, as usual, surprise me with something I never expect before?

Is it worth the wait?
Is it worth fighting for?

In life, we struggle with these things, lots of what ifs, and is it worth.
And if we never try, we never knew what awaits us.
You know, we're finally here, at the end of the year.
Look at our new year resolution of 2011,
How many check do you get?
How many wishes, plans, dreams, that has come true?
Me? I get 5 out of 16
And one of them is something I never expect to happen before,
one of them is a prove, that dreams do come true.

Life tend to surprise us with things.
It's how we handle those things that determine who we are.
And as I always say, faith, is also the key, to handle those surprises with grace.

Well about boys.
We girls usually wonder.
Is he worth the wait? Is he worth keeping?
Is he worth fighting for?

And it's our choice.
Someone once say, fall in love is not a choice, you just fall.
But stay in love, is a decision.
Is he worth it? Worth all of these mess?

Well, I can't answer that for you. Look into your heart.
Deep down. And answer it yourself.
Be blessed.

A glimpse of the future

You know, i just got a broadcast message saying : BEWARE! Don't enter the toilet at 31st December 2011 at 23.59 o'clock! You might end up in the future!
This nonsense really, really make, or made me laugh.
But this get me into thinking.
If this is true, do you dare trying this?
I just wonder, if i can see a little of my future now, will i give it a try?
To be honest, I wonder a lot of things, so maybe a little glimpse of the future will do.
The person I'm gonna marry, my dreams, my house, my career, what would it be like in 10 years?
Will everything be fulfilled as i wish?
Or will life offer me something better?
And you know, this really is funny, of course you'll end up in the future, when you come out of that toilet, it will be 2012! hahahahah
But really, I'm asking you.
If you can see a little of your future through a certain things, like that, like this nonsense or any other nonsense, will you give it a try?
I will.
But life, life is about uncertainty.
In life, everything is possible, that's why we can not see the future.
We can only worry about it, an solve nothing.
That's why there's this one thing called faith.
Believing in God's plan.
Whatever it is, it will work out in the end.
Everything is beautiful in the end.
If it's not, it's not the end.
A glimpse of the future, how interesting huh?
Just a little peek of me 10 years from now will do. a 5 minutes peek.
But sadly, no one is offering that kind of deal to me.
What about you? I know you're lying when you say you don't want to peek to your future.
Everybody wants a little peek to the future.
But like I say, life is about uncertainty, and how we deal with it.
So, we can only believe.
You know, worrying means you don't believe your God enough.
So stop worrying. Just believe, whatever happens now, it will be worth it.
Have a blessed day, people!

Faith

You know the cheesy feeling you get when it's Christmas, and it's raining, and the suddenly you feel all alone?
I do. And it's strange.
At this moment I wonder what my future will be like,
especially after a little shake to my faith before,
I wonder, who's I'm gonna marry?
Is he older, taller?
Will he be stunning? Or will he be the boy next door?
The one I never saw coming?
I like surprise, by the way, so, Father in heaven, surprise me please :)
I wonder, how would he propose?
And the most important thing is,
when will i meet him?
yes, me, with so many posts saying "Be patient girls, wait for the right person girls" also have this time, a moment when I question everything about my life to God.
And the answer is simple.
Faith.
Have some faith.
In this kind of moment I also question if He knows what my desire is.
I question if He cares about my existence.
I question whether or not He listens to my prayer.
And I smile. Faith.
The difference between loser and winner is their faith.
God is writing our life.
Dreams weren't meant to be broken.
Dreams have no expiry dates, rite?
Looking back, my life has been wonderfully blessed.
So maybe now, you have your faith shaken too.
But don't worry. He knows best.
FAITH is the answer.
Your dream man? Your dream girl? He knows best.
He has prepared, or He's preparing the best person for you.
Whoever that may be. Believe. Have faith.
Have a blessed rainy Christmas all!
Best regards.

Mr. Perfect and Sincerity

I am having a little crush with this Mr. Perfect, my senior.
And as always, I tell things like this to my big old brother.
And what  surprised me was what he said,
"Usually, what wins a good man's or woman's heart, is sincerity,"
Yes, sincerity.
And this Mr. Perfect is really someone perfect.
It seems like he has no flaws!
I mean, every single girl, even the prettiest, are having a crush on him.
Some make a move, and some coward like me, well, just write a notes about him.
But what I'm going to share isn't this Mr. Perfect.
It's about sincerity.
This makes me question myself.
Am I sincere?
Or do i have a little crush on him, okay, big crush on him because he's perfect?
Because he match my list?
Sincere means you do everything because you love him, and you do just everything, with no intention of having it back. You don't consider spending your time with him as an investment to the future. You just simply love spending your time with him.
Sincere means wanting to be there for him.
In good, or bad, sickness and health, and through thick and thin.
Oh yes babe, you should question yourself.
Can you imagine him 20 years from now, looking less perfect, he has less hair than he do now, and fall in love all over again every time you look into his eyes?
Uh well, i have one good example of happy marriage. It's my own parent's marriage.
Every time i see them, they're perfect for each other.
Okay, they aren't perfect. They are far from it. But they love each other.
And what's important is, they make a good example of happy marriage.
What wins a good man's or woman's heart is sincerity.
But does everyone knows how to be sincere?
I'm still learning.
And I'm nothing better than you guys.
And not anyone can be sincere.
There are people who simply don't know how to be sincere their whole life.
So don't be them.
Love is something irreplaceable. Don't love with the wrong reason.
Don't love because you are lonely. It's not love, it's settling down with the first guy that bumps into you giving some attention.
To me, love is like this "I don't need you in my life, but still i want you. I am perfectly fine without you, but still i want to share, and spend the rest of my life with you,"
Okay, have a nice weekend guys!

Not one of those girls

Have you ever feel different?
Like, yeah, different?
You feel that you're not as pretty as those girls who wears skinny jeans and heels.
You feel that you're not as bright as that geeky but pretty girl.
You feel that, maybe there's no one else like you.
You're just weird.
Well guess what, you are weird.
You're one of a kind. There's no one else like you in this world.
And you should be proud of yourself that you stand out from the crowd.
Ever find yourself wandering alone?
Well congratulation!
It doesn't mean that you don't have a friend.
It means you're brave enough to stand on your own than be with a clique that brings you down.
Never been in a relationship?
Guess what! Me too!
And I am proud of me.
Yes, maybe you can choose any guy who make a move on you, but why would you be with just anyone?
Like i always say, wait patiently, and the right someone will come.
To be alone doesn't mean you're lonely.
And single doesn't mean you're ugly.
I mean, yes, i question myself a few times, am i that unattractive?
But then i remember the girl with no one to hold on, the girl who's afraid to even speak,
and see me now, well, my "transformation" would be a waste if i pick just anyone to be with me now.
So girls, if you think you're weird, you are.
Be proud, you're not one of those girls.
You stand out. You are bright in your own way.
You have an inner beauty only real man can see.
You don't have time to be with some desperate by now. STAND OUT!
You are all born to lead, born to be a star.
Have a blessed day!

In love? Or obligated?

Do you know the feeling you get when you fall in love?
When the little text messages makes you smile like a pervert,
When waiting hour becomes such an excitement for you?
I do.
And do you know what obligated is?
Like, uh yeah, he likes me, so i have to like him too,
otherwise he'll get hurt.
Or, uh well, it's better than no one at all.
Or even worse, what if he's my last chance? what if i couldn't find anyone better?
Oh dear, don't be such an easy cheesy!
You know the saying "he's desperate and you're easy" ?
Do you want people to judge you that way?
Anyhow people judge, so it's all depends on you, how do you want to get judged.

In love, is the feeling you have when you want him to be the first to know everything.
When you're sad you call him,
when you got great news you call him.
When anything happens, you just want to call him.
You just walk around with that ear-to-ear smile like a pervert when he texts you.
Also there's this wonderful feeling of "I want to be there for you"
When you're in love, it doesn't matter,
whether  he wants to be there for you or not,
you're still willing to be there for him.
How lucky you are when you both feels the same.

Then what is obligated?
it's like this, "he cares about me, therefore i should too."
"uh well, he's not that bad, better than sit alone in Saturday night anyway,"
or "I'm not so pretty, why wait for me to fall in love? he has fallen for me anyway,"
girls, when you're in love, you'll understand.
You'll have this amazing head-over-heels moments with this one special guy.
Keep in mind, you're beautiful, you deserve to fall in love.
Also, when your man know that you choose him, not just pick him because he's the first boy that bumps into you, it means much more than what i can describe.

Dear, wait patiently,
Love, in love, and your perfect mate worth the wait,
and have a little faith! God is writing your love story!
Have a blessed week!

Love is something we can't understand

Me and my big brother, talked about this one night, while I'm studying the confusing theory of Gauss-Jordan. 

Love is something we can't understand. It's beyond our understanding.

When you wait for more than an hour for her doing her make-ups.

When you wait all night for him to call you.

When he makes you upset for forgetting your mom's birthday or else.

Love is understanding her needs to be perfect for you.

Love is about understanding his anger towards you, when you have no time to text him.

Love is,

walking together in the rain, hand in hand.

But this isn't enough.

As a girls, we often fantasize the kind of perfect love, perfect moment.

Like when you're lonely and out of sudden he pops out and makes you laugh.

Or when he takes you on a  moonlight walk in the beach, talk about everything.

But these are only a surface.

When the passion is off, what will you do?

When the waiting hour becomes so boring, when you feel like, uh well, I've seen her worst, what's the point of her doing make up now?

Girls hate make ups. We do this because we love you.

We want to be pretty in front of you.

We need the statement, when you hold our hands or, well, anything.

We have our insecurity.

So guys, when you get bored, remember, you love her first.

Remember the first time you fall for her, then imagine her in her wedding dress.

The most beautiful bride you'll ever see.

Then imagine her in her sweat pants, with your kids.

Imagine her when the beauty of her face slowly fade away.

Will you love her just the same?

Can handle her when the beautiful body, the s-line she used to have has gone?

Can you?

Before you say "I love you" to a girl, think about this.

Because girls, we're somehow idiot.

We will do something stupid, like believe you.

We have faith in you. So before yo fool us. Re-consider it.

Have a blessed sunday!

The moment of waiting

This morning i read one of my favorite blog, Axioo. It's about an astonishing bride-to-be.
And what amazed me was this line "The moment of waiting is worth capturing,"
Yes, it is.
So often, many of us wants to find our true love soon, very soon that we forget to enjoy our waiting moment.
Couple days ago, as i look at the faces I've known, the faces I love, I say to myself, I'm gonna miss this moment.
Being with friends, surrounded by people I love, makes me wonder if things are gonna stay the same as time goes by.
And just today, after one tiring evening, I see the faces of people I've worked with, the laughter we shared, the teases we say, it's all worth.
It really is.
I'm only 18, I have a long journey ahead. I don't really know when I am gonna meet my true love, or where life will take me.
But, love, take your time, life, prepare myself to be ready.
Because I am enjoying this moment.
Girls out there. Don't rush.
Enjoy your moment.
One day you will be wearing that astonishing white dress, with the man of your dream,
and looking back, make sure it's all worth.
Make the waiting phase fun enough.
Because one day, you'll wake up to the man you love, and the kids who's still sleeping on one beautiful rainy day, and you might remember, the time of your youth.
Make sure, you don't regret it at all.
Make sure, you'll look back with happy tears all over your face.
And make sure, that looking at your man and your incredible kids, you'll smile and say, Thanks Lord, it's all worth the wait.
Ecclesiates 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.
Have a blessed sunday.

Thank You Lord

This night's fellowship has been such a blessing to me. Thank you guys.
The theme was "Waiting for God's answer"
Waiting, Who in the world loves to wait? NO one, rite?
For example, you may ask for a soul-mate, but God said "wait," and there's no certainty about how long we do have to wait, we will be pissed.
No kidding.
But in life you sometimes have to wait. Because if you rush into something, you won't appreciate it.
Wait patiently, God is doing you.
God is preparing you to fit in the circumstances that you always want.
A little sharing,
Right now I am officially a crew at Fairytale Organizer, and I'm proud to be one of the crew.
And i really Thank GOD for that.
2 years ago, this was just a dream.
2 years ago, I want to join an event organizer, but they all rejects me.
I'm not good enough, or so I thought.
But now here I am, having my wish fulfilled.
And looking back, seeing what God is doing with my life,
and seeing me now, it's all worth the wait.
Sure, I'm not as good as I think I am.
I'm ordinary.
But my life has been extraordinarily blessed.
Everyone that comes in to my life, or even go, has been such a blessing to me.
Thanks for everything, Lord.

A little something about love

I have my own definition of true love, you know.
For me, true love doesn't lie in sweet text messages or sweet phone calls, or how many times a day that you tell me I am beautiful.
Long meaningful text? If it was that meaningful, why don't you say it in person? remember guys, we, not only girls, but also guys, believe in action.
Sometimes the purest love lies in some jokes, teases, and pranks, it is not when you tell me that I am beautiful, but when you make me feel that I am.
When you choose me over those other prettier girls.
The feeling I get when i got your text message.
and I don't recognize you at all, for we're friends.
The luck feeling.

I want to have someone who can make me feel thankful for all the time.
Who can make me smile over his ridiculous action.
One who shows his true color.
What are pretty words after all?
It's just words.

After my first heart break, it feels.. hard to fall again.
Especially after this very nice guy, it's just hard.
And I miss those feeling.
Is there any ice built in my soul?

And if i put walls up, is there anyone who cares to break them down?

To my dear friend...

Dear girl,

don't worry about your life, or your future,for God has a big plan ahead for you.

Don't worry about your flaws, God made you that way.

Someday, when you are feeling down, and I can't be around, close your eyes, and take a peaceful moment. Just a moment, to come to His presence.

Maybe feel the breeze of the wind,

or listen to the sound of the chirping bird.

Or just to say thanks, to the life you are given.

When life brings you down, look at the end of the street.

He's there, waiting for you with an open arms, waiting for you to run unto him.

He'll comforts you, more than you mother ever could.

I must admit, i can't always be around.

But if you ever need a helping hand, God is there. Just remember that.

Love is...Unselfish

You know, this is just one of those cliche quotes about love.

But have you ever really think that love is unselfish?

Love is unselfish, which is mean that you put your lover's need above you, you don't push him to what you want to make you happy.

Love is unselfish, which means that you choose to understand his needs, you choose to be busier than you ever was for him. Yeah, busy i say. Loving someone is sometimes troublesome.

We are human. We are all selfish. I must admit that i am very selfish. I only think about me and me.

But let's repeat this phrase again, for, maybe a thousand times in this article.

If you want to love someone, you should think of him more than you think about yourself.

That even on your busiest day, you are willing to make time in your precious lunch-time to call. To check on him, making sure if he's alright.

And when you get married (to me this is a great sacrifice, a proof that love is unselfish) we, as a woman, have to give up some dreams that haven't come true.

That you give your all to him.

That you have faith in him.

That you can see yourself with some broken dreams, but still manage to smile. Because you know, in the end, even if you don't run a huge company, or being such a career lady, it's all worth it. That you are willing to be the woman behind all your husband's successes.

Girls, let's imagine us, in a homey home, snuggling with 3 wonderful kids, while your husband runs a huge company, which was one of your dreams.

If you are willing to do that, then you are a great person.

Singles, let's examine ourselves.

Love is unselfish, are you willing to make time for your mate? Or let go some dreams that have not come true to stay home, do dishes, raising kids?

When you are willing to, with a sincere heart, love will find you.

Be blessed.

Need or willing to?

You know, there's a difference between these two things, huge one.

If you need to be loved, then like most people, you will be with someone because you feel the need of love and care from someone else.

But if you are willing to love, it will be because you are willing to share your life with someone, that you are ready to be with someone whom you care and cares about you. And the most important thing is, that you are ready for commitment.

Most people wonders, why do I stay single?

and i just smile, mostly.

It is because I'm not ready, and i don't need to be loved by someone, I have all the love I needed.

But I want to.

I want to love and be loved, just, not now.

Sometimes I feel the rush of jealousy running through my veins.

How dare people have someone to be with on the weekend?

While here I am, having a relationship with my activities.

But then, why rush? There are so many couples that are stuck in an unhappy relationship, just because they need to be loved.

At first it felt sweet, having someone around.

But then, when the difficulties come, when this relationships that based on "need-to-be-loved" comes to an end, there will be a lot of tears and 2 broken hearts.

Yes, girls, not every love story has a happy ending. But you can always learn something.

My tips, for all the singles, who are waiting for the right guy, don't just jump into the first man who come around and show you a lil' attention. Wait. Patiently.

Don't make someone to be the reason of your happiness, because when they're gone, you are left with nothing.

Trust me, if you feel the need of having someone around you, you don't.

And it is totally different, if you choose to love someone sincerely, because you are willing to, it feels different. Really.

So why rush? Why not wait for God's greatest gift?

Love when your heart is ready, not when you are lonely.

Be blessed!

Lucky you!

And lucky you, dear future-sister-in-law!

You know why? Because my big brother loves you for the way you are.

He loves your curves, your flaws, he loves everything about you.

He loves you even on your darkest day.

And I must say, you're a real woman, therefore you are hard to catch.

I remember when he was on the 'chasing you' time, he told me something sweet about you that makes me wonder, if the man who is meant to be with me will do the same as my big brother did.

"She asked me, v, "Why do you like me?" and i answered, "Because you give me the chance to worry about you, to buy you food, to care about you," and when i asked, "isn't it troublesome?" and he said, girl, you really need to learn about sincerity, when you love someone, it is not a duty, but an honor to me."

And darn!

All those things he said to me about you, i pull a conclusion that you really are a very lucky girl.

You really are.

I wish you a great future, both of you.

There you are!

Do you know, we are all searching for the one who can complete us.
And those who have found one are happen to be so happy, but they have to struggle to keep them too.
For those who haven't find the one yet, don't worry.
God is busy writing your love story.
Or He's busy doing your perfect mate, He's preparing your mate to be perfect for you.
For me, he doesn't have to be that handsome, or that rich,
and i also don't need to be protected, or to be told when to eat, when to sleep,
i don't need a stalker.
What I need is someone super awesome, that can stand me, and accept my weaknesses.
Someone busier than I am, but always make his time for me.
Someone i can run to when i cry, and someone i can trust with all my heart.
One who listen,
one who'll hold me in my weakest day.
He doesn't ask what is wrong, he'll just do it, he'll just hold me.
One who doesn't ask for my permission to pick me up, but do it straightly.
No, he doesn't need to put a sticker I love (my name) in his car,
He proves that he does.
not the all talk man,
but the man everyone talks about because of his good deeds.
A gentleman.
And is that too much? no.
When i have my own son, I'll raise him to be this kind of man.
You know, when i find him, the man God has prepared for me, I will say, There you are, I've been waiting for you.
And if he asks, is it long?
I'll say, it is, but you're worth the wait.

Some wishes, a lot of work, and a lot of prayer

I guess, that's what it takes to be where i am now.
2 years ago, I was only 16. I was only a little girl, who knows nothing about world.
It's not that I know something now.
It's just, looking at myself now, and then looking back, and realizing how far I've come, I am more than thankful.
Really. I was a 'nobody' and now, well not quite a somebody, but i'm proud of me and who I have become. I really do.
And all of this won't happen without the grace of my God, the loving and supportive parents God has given to me, the caring Grams and the funny auntie and uncle.
Let's not forget another God's greatest gift, the friends. My life have been blessed since the day i know them.

This Blog is made out of love, and to thank all aspect of my life that makes me who i am today.